february nanaman.

february nanaman. love month nanaman uli. gusto ko sana gumawa ng post tungkol sa love. kea lang pagkatapos ng ilang try, wala akong maitype. ewan ko. marahil nga konti pa lang ang alam ko tungkol sa love. at kung tungkol naman sa relationship eh mas lalong wala akong alam. nakakahiya mang aminin pero i only had a relationship once. at super tagal na nun. haha. di ko nga maalaala kung minahal ko talaga ang taong yun. pero anyhow, kahit wala akong lovelife. masaya pa din ako. ewan ko ba kung bakit matagal akong mahulog. malimit kasi akala ko in-love na ako pero at the end of the day i'll realize na infatuation lang pala. or siguro unconsciously pinipigilan ko sarili ko na magmahal. bakit? di ko din alam. siguro natatakot akong mahulog at masaktan. tulad ng mga nakikita ko sa aking mga kaibigan. ahahay. di naman ako tibo. ahaha. pero sabi ko nga, masaya ako. totoo. dahil kahit wala akong 'romantic love' punung-puno naman ako ng love mula sa aking mga kaibigan, pamilya at mula sa Kanya. at alam ko naman na darating na lang si Mr. Right sa tamang panahon. sabi nga ni mama sakin nung minsan, maaga pa, mag-enjoy muna daw ako. at tama. masaya nga ako ngayon. :)

anong ginagawa ko pag valentines day? lumalabas kami ng aking mga friends. girls night out ika nga. wala akong maalalang valentines day na malungkot. puro lang masaya. kwentuhan. boylet hunting. haha. kainan at walang sawang kwentuhan uli. marahil sila uli ang mga ka-date ko ngayong taon.


matet, angie, sam, jhosel, marian. -last year's valentines.
(not in the pic: ise, emcie, maie pero andun din sila)

kayo pano niyo isecelebrate ang valentines? romantic date ba sa mamahaling resto? o nagprepare kayo ng isang surprise gift? napag isip isip ko. di kailangan ang magarbong selebrasyon sa valentines day upang mapakita mo ang pagmamahal mo sa mga taong mahal mo. simpleng 'i love you' lang at quality time together. okay na. pwedeng kumain lang kayo at magkwentuhan, basta't sincere ang ipinapakita niyo sa isa't isa. ang importante ay yung feelings diba?

at teka. hindi rin lang pang lovers ang valentines day. ito din ang araw para ipakita natin ang ating love sa ating pamilya at kaibigan. dibat dapat lang suklian din natin ang kanilang pagmamahal para sa atin. simpleng 'i love you' sa ating mga magulang ay ma-aappreciate na nila. o di kaya'y ikaw muna ang gumawa ng gawaing bahay.

sa panahon ng pag-ibig, sana lahat tayo'y maging masaya. nawa'y maramdaman natin ang 'love' na hinahanap natin. maging 'romantic love' man ito o 'familial love, friendship love or agape'.



inkdrop: paxenxia na. di aq mkagawa ng maayos na post ngayon. napagod kasi ako sa family affair namin ngayon tho i enjoyed my time with them a lot.♥

written by a guy.

haha! lahat ata ng nadaanan kung blogs tungkol sa love and relationship ang mga bagong post ah. mukha atang inlab ang mga madlang people. kaya heto makiki-uso na din ako. mas madali itong sakyan kesa sa trip ni supergulaman at diane. ahaha!

eto namay nakuha ko lamang sa aking friendster bulletin. isang post na pinagpasapasahan na. ewan ko kung sinong original author nito. malamang isang lalaking kakagaling palang sa break-up at gustong ilabas ang kanyang sentimyento sa mga babae. haha! pero saludo ako sa kung sino mang gumawa nito kasi may punto nga xia. i myself am guilty. di ko alam na ganyan pala ang nasa loob nio. kaya heto ishi-share ko din dito sa mundo ng blogosphere. para madami pa kaming matauhan. haha.

heto na.
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a girl need to realize

Ladies, We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls OR TEXTS you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you!

Don’t "feel bad".

We enjoy doing it.

It's expected.

Smile and say "thank you."

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. or my shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

"Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us".

It's boring, and we don't care. You have friends for that.

Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/"beautiful"?

I’d be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.

on the other hand I’m not saying I wouldn't like it either.

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change. ditch his sorry ASS, he's a disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say "i love you" ..

and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this.

*Holding Hands

Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of

times.

Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

*Cuddling

Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold

Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

*Movies

Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder

Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other

Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.

*Laying below the stars

Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat.

Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

-written by a guy.

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ayan. may mga parts na mejo disagree ako pero ewan ko. ahahay.. mga pare, ano sa tingin nio?

im addicted to casting crowns!!

these past few days, my anxiety level turned from mild to moderate. waah!! i can't sleep and im just too bothered. bothered with the upcoming results of my board exam. okay, i already said that i'll be happy whether i'll pass or not but then again, i worked hard for this that's why i wanted to pass this exam badly. hahay! and my anxiety level is even higher today than during the day of the exam itself! whoa.. i can't explain what i feel, what i know is, i crave to pass.. i crave to be a nurse.

anyway, to keep my head cool, i started to listen to casting crowns again. actually before the exams i was having anxiety attacks, then my friend told me to listen to 'voice of truth' by casting crowns. and you know what, when i heard it during that crucial time in my life, i just can't help but cry. i was like an idiot, crying by myself in our room (review center). i dont care about other people staring at me, i was savoring every word of that song, every word that goes deep into my heart saying that i should not be afraid coz He is with me. grabe! ang awesome talaga ni Lord!

so now I decided to download Casting Crowns. haha.. their songs remind me to believe. believe in Him that everything will fall to its right place. and im getting addicted to their music. although all their songs are christian, they put on a li'l rock feel on it so that it would blend to the new generation. oo nga naman, i myself is guilty for not liking religious songs na makaluma. haha. but their songs are just addicting. and i thank casting crowns coz it really does lessen my anxiety.

okay, to give you some background of casting crowns, here's what i got from wikipedia.

Casting Crowns is a Grammy Award and Dove Award winning Christian band that employs a soft rock music style. The band was created in 1999 by youth pastor Mark Hall at First Baptist Church in Downtown Daytona Beach, Florida as part of a youth group. He also serves as a lead vocalist. Later they moved to McDonough, Georgia and more members joined creating the band now known as Casting Crowns.

Casting Crowns has enjoyed tremendous success in the United States. They have released nine singles to date with seven of them becoming consecutive number one hits on various Christian music charts. "Voice of Truth" spent a record-breaking fourteen consecutive weeks at #1 beginning in 2003. "Lifesong" spent nine weeks in the top spot, with "Praise You in This Storm" remaining at #1 for seven weeks. Casting Crowns broke their own record in 2007 when the single "East to West" from The Altar and the Door hit sixteen consecutive weeks at #1. The song ended up enjoying the top spot for a total of nineteen weeks, now their most successful single to date.




their albums were Casting Crowns(self-titled), Lifesong, The Altar and the Door, and Peace on Earth. i have a copy of the first three and put it on my imeem. the 4th one tho is their christmas album in 2008.

listening to their music makes me at peace. i dunno. maybe i just feel His message on them. haiz.

try nio din.. here's the link: Casting Crowns, Lifesong, The Altar and the Door.



inkdrop: i also want to say thank you sa lahat ng blogs na natambayan ko. tho i wasn't able to read ALL your posts but reading through your blogs also lessens my anxiety. salamat po. (wow! ang senti ko ata! haha! but i mean it!:D)

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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casting_Crowns
http://www.castingcrowns.com/

wala lang!

matapos akong mag blog-hopping at dumaan daan sa mga blogs ng kung sinu-sino (dahil ako'y bago lamang sa inyong tinatawag na blogosphere at wala naman akong kakilala dito), napag isip-isip ko, bakit nga ba ako ingles nang ingles? haha! lahat ata nang dinaanan ko at tinambayan ay puro panay filipino ang blog. kunsabagay, di naman talaga ako sanay mag-filipino. nakakatawa nga e. purong pinoy ako at kahit kailan di pa naman ako umalis ng pinas pero bakit mas sanay at kumportable ako sa wikang ingles? di kagaya nung mga nadaanan ko na kahit nakatira sila sa ibang bansa ay naroon parin ang wikang filipino. nakaka-awa naman ako.

ah! alam ko na! marahil kasi nakatira ako sa probinsya. sa naga.. na may sariling ring dialekto. lumaki ako sa lugar kung saan lahat ng tao ay naka-bikol. malimit akong nakakakita ng mga nagueno na nagsasalita ng tagalog. kahit may subject na filipino sa mga paaralan na pinasukan ko, hindi pa rin yun sapat para mahubog ang wika sa akin.. kasi naman noong mga unang taon ko sa elementarya, may english policy kami. dapat kahit kakausapin mo ang klasmeyt mo ay mag-ingles ka, kung hindi magbabayad ka na isang piso. yan tuloy mas nasanay ako mag-ingles. kaya nung lumipat ako sa pampublikong paaralan nang grade 4 ako, hindi ko alam ang apostle's creed, our father at hail mary sa tagalog, kahit nga sa bikol e. hahaha. kapag mag rorosaryo na kami sa klase, nag li-lip-sync na lang ako para hindi mahalata nang titser namin. nakakahiya kaya yun. grade 4 na, hindi marunong magdasal. ahahay. ewan ko ba. naiintindihan ko naman ang filipino, hindi lang talaga ako sanay gamitin ito. nung hayskul nga, filipino ang pinakababa kung marka. ironic di ba? yun na nga ang pinaka simpleng subject pero mababa pa din ang nakuha ko.

sabi daw ni pareng pepe, ang hindi magmahal sa sariling wika ay malansa pa sa isda. pero hindi niya nakita na ang pilipinas ay may iba't ibang dialekto sa bawat probinsya kaya talaga hindi naman lahat ng pinoy ay sanay mag filipino. dito lang nga sa probinsya ng bicol, hindi lamang bikol ang dialekto, meron ding rinconada, albaynon at iba pa. hindi ako magtataka kung may mga pinoy na hindi marunong umintindi ng ating sariling wika. di kagaya sa US na english lang talaga ang salita, o sa Japan na niponggo lamang ang gamit. dapat kasi hindi lang ingles ang prinopromote sa mga paaralan.. dapat kung may english-speaking zone, meron ding filipino-speaking zone.. (haha, di ko alam kung pano ang filipino-speaking zone sa tagalog..) para mas malinang ang paggamit ng wikang filipino lalo na sa probinsya. sa manila at sa ibang lugar ay walang problema dahil yun naman talaga ang gamit nila. pero para sa akin at sa iba pang hindi sanay, nabawasan ba ang pagkapinoy namin dahil hindi namin gamay ang wika natin?

sa palagay ko kahit ingles ako nang ingles hanggat nananatili ang pagkapinoy ko sa aking puso hindi kaso yun. hay, buhay!

learning feedback diary..

since were down on memory lane.. here's something..

while i was fixing my things, i found this small notebook.. my learning feedback diary for our RLE way back in 2nd year. here we have to write about our exposures - clinical and community.



my first ever exposure as a student nurse was in the community. we were assigned at brgy. sua, camaligan, camarines sur.

Barangay Sua, Sitio Tampac is just beside Barangay Dugcal. Its a 10-15mins ride from Naga. here's my account for my first ever RLE exposure..

September 22, 2005
Bgy. Sua, Camaligan, Cam. Sur

COMMUNITY EXPOSURE #1

Arriving at the entrance of Bgy. Sua, Camaligan, you could really distinguish their primary source of income, that is, agriculture and farming, through the vast rice fields surrounding their place. At some point you could notice what was left from the wrath of typhoon Labuyo. As what Bgy. Capt. Sta. Ana said, "our harvest was ruined so we must replant again," thus affecting their income.
As we went on to our exposure, we have noticed some garbage not properly disposed which can harbor the growth of infectious microorganisms. Further, in our home visit, we advised the residents to maintain the cleanliness of their environment to prevent illness and diseases.
The home visits were generally heart-whelming. The families had welcomed us into their homes. They were even glad to see us and asked us to take their BPs. At first I was shy to reach to them because I am afraid that they might reject us but then even though we were complete strangers they were so enthusiastic to open their lives to us. With that, my shyness was replaced with excitement. Their stories were almost the same. Hearing how unfortunate they had become at som etime, made me realized how lucky I am. They made me appreciate what i have now and that I must take good care of them. Mrs. Susan stressed the importance of education and asked us to give priorities on them. She also pointed out how their being undergraduates affected thier lives. Healthwise, it became a hindrance for them to fully develop their health and nutrition.
I was indeed glad with the active participation of the residents of Sua. The bystanders asked us to take their BPs and even the group of residents who were having their meeting. At some point, I was disappointed to see an old man sleeping on the barangay hall with the coldness of the floor and dirty surroundings when he should be at home and being taken good care by his family. I suggest that the Barangay Health Center should also conduct programs for the elderly to ensure that their needs are also given proper attention. They must also conduct programs for proper sanitation and give importance to hygiene.
Generally, our exposure was successful. Somehow the concepts of communtiy health nursing was fulfilled. We had reached out to them and hopefully there will be more encounter with them in the next sessions.

Jhosel Mendrique
BSN2F.

for my entire nursing school life, Sua has been very close to my heart. it has been one of my unforgettable experience because we were assigned in that area for more than twice.. (one assignment is 3days for 2wks) that's why we've been close to the residents of Sua. im also glad that in our succeeding exposure in that area, we were able to conduct MMDST (a developmental screening test) for the children and series of seminars for health promotion.
now, while waiting for the board exam results, i suddenly miss the adrenaline rush. i miss being in the community. i miss being in the hospital. i miss being a nurse. i do pray, that i would be, in no time..

blue oath..

im browsing my old documents and found this. its an oath that i made for our EPP class.. an oath that everyone [EPP class] signed for our dearest trainers, doris and john.

i miss these two bubbly trainers and the whole experience. here's the oath..

We, Class 21 B2, do hereby pledge to imbibe all our learning from our English Proficiency class in our daily life.
We solemnly promise that we will never say “May I go to the CR?” whenever we want to go to the bathroom nor will say ‘ref’ when referring to fridge. We will remember the formula to success: DOES + Base form and be very cautious to the Killer S. We also swear not to be milquetoast; however, we will never be overweening and tetchy.
We will not be confused that HE is HIS brother, SHE is HER sister and I am MY self. We’ll be comfortable in using appropriate pronunciation and ensure the continuity of our speech progress. We will be very careful in enunciating the –Ds and –Eds when something had happened in the past.
We might come back to what we used to know about English SOMETIMES but we will ALWAYS practice so that we will NEVER forget what we had learned. Soon we will realize that WE HAVE BEEN better than before.
Whenever we will be on the bus or in a car, passing through cities and suburbs, driving onto bridges and arriving in our destination safely, we will remember the trips that we had from the Bronx to the Central Park and back again. Wherever we are – at work, in the hospital, or on a farm, we will not be shy to speak in English.
We will give our best in our work the same way as how we wanted to be served.
If we have a chance to go to the United States, we will remember not just the commandments of our religion but also the 10 commandments of the American Culture. We will never forget that Sears Tower is the tallest building in the United States; Kofi Anan is the seventh Secretary-General of United Nations and L.A. Lakers is the basketball team of Los Angeles with Shaquille O’neal as one of its best players.
During interviews or even during discussions, we will always use CIDS to organize our thoughts.
We also promise to study more and continue learning because we know we still have a lot of grammar to learn. We want to learn some American slangs and vocabulary. We will equip our self with a lot of knowledge. We will work our buns off to achieve all these because we know that it is easier said than done. We believe that if we are going to put all these in heart, we will definitely be successful.
We pledge to follow what Anne had taught us, that is, to be bold and see a new accent as an adventure. We will never say Bob..is..on..the..phone.. but we will say Bä bizän the foun.
Lastly, we will never forget Doris and John who had been our inspiration to continually grow and learn. We will always be grateful to these mean but LOVELY, SEXY, GREAT AND BEST English teachers we ever had. So help us God.

--im trying my best to keep my oath..haha!